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Anonymous Survivor Story:
'On My Mind'
Why Do You Want To Tell Your Story?
It has been on my mind a lot the past few months, to the point where I don't feel good at all about myself. Maybe clearing the air will help me feel better...
It has been on my mind a lot the past few months, to the point where I don't feel good at all about myself. Maybe clearing the air will help me feel better...
Tell Us Your Story
It all started when I was about 4 years old. I would go to my nan and papas house on the weekends to spend time with my older twin cousins who lived there. Me and my cousins were close and would play all sorts of games together. One day we played hide and seek and I hid under the bed with my cousin. While we were under there I remember him asking me if I wanted to kiss him.
I replied: "Ew, No! That's for mum's and dad's. And we will get germs".
He told me: "No it's alright we won't get germs, it's only germs if we use our tongues".
Being the youngest I listened to him and we kissed under the bed. This started a confusing spiral in my head. I can't remember when it first started but I remember that that kiss led to more and more stuff over the years to the point where we were performing sexual acts on each other.
I remember them saying things like: "You pretend to be the girl and I'll be the boy, so you have to do what girls would do".
I forgot to mention that, it was both twins that had done these things to me.
It continued up until I was about 13 years old. However my thoughts were always thinking about sex. Because I had been touched sexually I started enjoying those feelings I got even tho by then I knew it wasn't normal. It messed me up. I did many things when I was a kid that I deeply regret and it was all because of the abuse. To this day I struggle with my feelings. I just want to get my story out there so that if anyone else has gone through the same stuff then just know your not alone. We gotta be here to support each other and look out for one another.
It all started when I was about 4 years old. I would go to my nan and papas house on the weekends to spend time with my older twin cousins who lived there. Me and my cousins were close and would play all sorts of games together. One day we played hide and seek and I hid under the bed with my cousin. While we were under there I remember him asking me if I wanted to kiss him.
I replied: "Ew, No! That's for mum's and dad's. And we will get germs".
He told me: "No it's alright we won't get germs, it's only germs if we use our tongues".
Being the youngest I listened to him and we kissed under the bed. This started a confusing spiral in my head. I can't remember when it first started but I remember that that kiss led to more and more stuff over the years to the point where we were performing sexual acts on each other.
I remember them saying things like: "You pretend to be the girl and I'll be the boy, so you have to do what girls would do".
I forgot to mention that, it was both twins that had done these things to me.
It continued up until I was about 13 years old. However my thoughts were always thinking about sex. Because I had been touched sexually I started enjoying those feelings I got even tho by then I knew it wasn't normal. It messed me up. I did many things when I was a kid that I deeply regret and it was all because of the abuse. To this day I struggle with my feelings. I just want to get my story out there so that if anyone else has gone through the same stuff then just know your not alone. We gotta be here to support each other and look out for one another.
- Anonymous
